this autoethnography focuses on my educational experiences from kindergarten through post-secondary. i look at what was and continues to be my journey. i conclude with an examination of the meaning i attribute to being called an apple and at times being considered an outsider. what i have attempted to accomplish through autoethnography is to bring these experiences to light. i have revealed both the positive and negative experiences in my educational journey, but most importantly, i have discovered the joy of knowing who i am today. enjoy.